Today I abandoned my dream of the past 7+ years.
After working 16 hour days for the past week I finally had a 'talk with myself'. I often do this when I can not figure out why I am angry, unhappy or even 'disconnected'.
After fighting with myself to accept the answer, I gave up my dream.
At once the self inflicted pressure I had been under disappeared!
Now I have a much smaller plan, a smaller goal but sill a DREAM.
Managing expectations made working toward the smaller goal much easier.
I have trimmed my 2 month trip by a week so I could at least book a few room reservations.
I have reduced my number of proposed 'interviews' to 2 or 3 instead of a dozen.
And I shall stay longer in one place so I am not constantly racing to a train station or an airport.
Although I had to give up my dream to travel by freighter, I shall try take an overnight ferry to Sicily. I have read the sunrise over Palermo is not to be missed.
I may not interview the oldest woman lace maker in Burano but I shall try to eat for 10 euros at the new food 'court' in the market centrale in Firenze.
My dreams will not all be met but I should enjoy the ride far more.